Present day...
THUD THUD
"Yah...what??"
"what are you doin? its 2 in the morning".
Its my mom, i wonder why is she bothering me that time.
"I'm juz listening to music", I replied
" I dont hear anything! Are you OK??". I can judge the genuine affection in tht question. Am I?? I really dont knw wat to anwer. I replied
"Yah, I guess so!" It dint made any difference, atleast its not the first time I'm lying to her...
* * *
Earlier that day...
It was a wendesday and I woke up early which is quite unusual and my mom was lil too surprised to see me that early.
"You woke up this early?!!? Its not usual!! What happened to you? You are acting all weird now a days. Is something bothering you??"
eeks. I dont knw wat made her intuitive! Thats why people say moms do know wats wrong with their children!! I was again made to lie to her to convince her I was OK..again Am I??
* * *
2 months before...
I was having a break frm my college hours and was talking with my friends. They were tryin to convince me to say something to someone
" you should be telling her wat u feel. You are no shahid kapoor or hrithik roshan to make her fall for you juz by your looks. you shud make her realize about your feelings"
should I? I mean why should I? Its a dead end. Should I jeopardize a nice friendship. Should I be more optimisitc. I'm always accused of being a pessimist. Will optimism help me in this situation?
"If you don't you would be regretting abt what would have happened if you have told her"
" What if she rejects me with a plain NO??"
"May be? So what. Atleast you would know the future of it. AS far as I know you, you would'nt do anything about it to make it happen so better you tell her"
Again voices in my head saying NO. Am I pulled into it? NO!! He is right. Atleast that way I'm being true to her. Rejection or success is another thing to deal with. An important thing though. Yah I should go to her!
* * *
Two year before...
There she coming..what should I do? Should I talk?? NO! I'm a bad talker. Should I ignore her? NO , that is rude..smile to her..juz smile...don't talk...Yes I'm smiling..smile smile...OMG is it tht hard to smile...SMILE!!!!
Oh god she is waving me. She is walking to me..What should I do? I should have ignored her!! OH god!! what shud i talk...
"hey"
say something...say something nice...SOMETHING!!! SOMETHING...anything will do..Oh my!! this is most ever one have'nt talked ...
"I should go to someplace as I have to be there in a minute"
" Ok then"
:O..YEAAY I talked to her..Its good..or why is it good?? is this a crush?? Why am I finding it difficult to talk to her eventhough i want to!! This is weird... i like that weirdness...wat should i do?? Naaah... I'm not gonna jump into any conclusions..If it is ,it would happen..If its not then its cool...Only time will tell!!
THUD THUD
"Yah...what??"
"what are you doin? its 2 in the morning".
Its my mom, i wonder why is she bothering me that time.
"I'm juz listening to music", I replied
" I dont hear anything! Are you OK??". I can judge the genuine affection in tht question. Am I?? I really dont knw wat to anwer. I replied
"Yah, I guess so!" It dint made any difference, atleast its not the first time I'm lying to her...
* * *
Earlier that day...
It was a wendesday and I woke up early which is quite unusual and my mom was lil too surprised to see me that early.
"You woke up this early?!!? Its not usual!! What happened to you? You are acting all weird now a days. Is something bothering you??"
eeks. I dont knw wat made her intuitive! Thats why people say moms do know wats wrong with their children!! I was again made to lie to her to convince her I was OK..again Am I??
* * *
2 months before...
I was having a break frm my college hours and was talking with my friends. They were tryin to convince me to say something to someone
" you should be telling her wat u feel. You are no shahid kapoor or hrithik roshan to make her fall for you juz by your looks. you shud make her realize about your feelings"
should I? I mean why should I? Its a dead end. Should I jeopardize a nice friendship. Should I be more optimisitc. I'm always accused of being a pessimist. Will optimism help me in this situation?
"If you don't you would be regretting abt what would have happened if you have told her"
" What if she rejects me with a plain NO??"
"May be? So what. Atleast you would know the future of it. AS far as I know you, you would'nt do anything about it to make it happen so better you tell her"
Again voices in my head saying NO. Am I pulled into it? NO!! He is right. Atleast that way I'm being true to her. Rejection or success is another thing to deal with. An important thing though. Yah I should go to her!
* * *
Two year before...
There she coming..what should I do? Should I talk?? NO! I'm a bad talker. Should I ignore her? NO , that is rude..smile to her..juz smile...don't talk...Yes I'm smiling..smile smile...OMG is it tht hard to smile...SMILE!!!!
Oh god she is waving me. She is walking to me..What should I do? I should have ignored her!! OH god!! what shud i talk...
"hey"
say something...say something nice...SOMETHING!!! SOMETHING...anything will do..Oh my!! this is most ever one have'nt talked ...
"I should go to someplace as I have to be there in a minute"
" Ok then"
:O..YEAAY I talked to her..Its good..or why is it good?? is this a crush?? Why am I finding it difficult to talk to her eventhough i want to!! This is weird... i like that weirdness...wat should i do?? Naaah... I'm not gonna jump into any conclusions..If it is ,it would happen..If its not then its cool...Only time will tell!!
1 comment:
I'll tell you what.. Just another INFATUATION it is ..! Well, whateva, don't think for a solution before trying it out! Good Luck Comes in Threes..Try no? Ready 1..2..3... ;)
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