Chapter 1
The Very Moment of Pain
Im a nobody. I guess my life is not as special as the ones in other stories, guess that might make this interesting. Every story has got a build up, climax, fun, comedy, tragedy, romance etc well in this one the only mood that is constant is pain. So consider this as a treatment of life from an angle which everyone sees it from time to time.
I work as an IT professional, which is supposed to be coolest job, if you dont have it. Its modern slavery where everyone is trying to pile up pressure on a developer, which is me, to deliver something that is nearly impossible to do. Saddest part is the one who does all the job, again the developer, gets the least amount of profit out of it, so there is'nt much to be happy on that front. My office is a male-only office, not by rule but it is like that, with 9 hours working time or more. So my private life is virtually non existent, i see the same set of faces every day. I do the same set of routine everyday. I talk to the same set of people everyday, about the same subjects. I think every work is like that, but for me this one is the worst experience in my life, and you will know why, if you continue to read, or i continue to write!
Im single by choice, and choices are there to make us to force mistakes on our lives. The illusion of choice is the worst of all, at the time, it seems we took the right choice without taking any risks but in hindsight, the risk seems to be the best option that we had. Im used to take risks, but that are impulsive, on a situation of choice, guess i take the ones which appears to be the the best for all, which end up being total blunders of my life. Im virgin, again by choice, one thing i dont regret. Being a one woman man requires to have some quality, and in my barren life, i intend to possess a quality or two, and this being one of the easiest, i just chose to embrace it. I dont have a lot to offer to the right girl for me, so i always thought this might be one thing that i could gift to only one person which i really care.
Im currently in a lot of pain, one thing ive always been in life. To me life has been an array of set backs with some shining moments scattered here and there. Weird thing is i was dull through most of the shining moments i had, and only realized they were the best moments, after it has passed. Its easy for people to say enjoy the little things, carrying the burden and trying to enjoy the little things is the worst possible feeling one can ever have. Knowing that, the responsibility solely falls on one self is scaring. We never realizes it once we are very deep in trouble, the world is really set to impart the maximum pain for us, is'nt it? So this is me, sharing my story, so that if ever someone try to read this, will understand what not to do in their life inorder to be happy!!
The Very Moment of Pain
Im a nobody. I guess my life is not as special as the ones in other stories, guess that might make this interesting. Every story has got a build up, climax, fun, comedy, tragedy, romance etc well in this one the only mood that is constant is pain. So consider this as a treatment of life from an angle which everyone sees it from time to time.
I work as an IT professional, which is supposed to be coolest job, if you dont have it. Its modern slavery where everyone is trying to pile up pressure on a developer, which is me, to deliver something that is nearly impossible to do. Saddest part is the one who does all the job, again the developer, gets the least amount of profit out of it, so there is'nt much to be happy on that front. My office is a male-only office, not by rule but it is like that, with 9 hours working time or more. So my private life is virtually non existent, i see the same set of faces every day. I do the same set of routine everyday. I talk to the same set of people everyday, about the same subjects. I think every work is like that, but for me this one is the worst experience in my life, and you will know why, if you continue to read, or i continue to write!
Im single by choice, and choices are there to make us to force mistakes on our lives. The illusion of choice is the worst of all, at the time, it seems we took the right choice without taking any risks but in hindsight, the risk seems to be the best option that we had. Im used to take risks, but that are impulsive, on a situation of choice, guess i take the ones which appears to be the the best for all, which end up being total blunders of my life. Im virgin, again by choice, one thing i dont regret. Being a one woman man requires to have some quality, and in my barren life, i intend to possess a quality or two, and this being one of the easiest, i just chose to embrace it. I dont have a lot to offer to the right girl for me, so i always thought this might be one thing that i could gift to only one person which i really care.
Im currently in a lot of pain, one thing ive always been in life. To me life has been an array of set backs with some shining moments scattered here and there. Weird thing is i was dull through most of the shining moments i had, and only realized they were the best moments, after it has passed. Its easy for people to say enjoy the little things, carrying the burden and trying to enjoy the little things is the worst possible feeling one can ever have. Knowing that, the responsibility solely falls on one self is scaring. We never realizes it once we are very deep in trouble, the world is really set to impart the maximum pain for us, is'nt it? So this is me, sharing my story, so that if ever someone try to read this, will understand what not to do in their life inorder to be happy!!
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