I tried to mend things with you. I know i screwed it up big time, but i tried to fix things the best way i could. I know I did leave you in the open, all by yourself, and abandoned you, but i came back, i tried to fix things, not by saying a plain sorry, but by working things out and fix everything that was broken. I was willing to change every aspect of me, the way you want, I still am, but you just pushed me away. I wanted to be back in your life, more than i wanted you to be in my life.
And now, i understand you dont want me in your life, I think i have to make peace with that, one way or another. After all, i always wanted you to be happy, that is why i left the first time, thinking i was wasting your love. Now it seems you too are convinced, maybe that is why you are pushing me away, despite all my efforts. I hope you are and will be happier without me, than when you were with me. I just hope you end up in the heights i thought you will reach, even though i may not be there with you to see where you have reached.
Maybe Im destined to live my life this way, One thing i can assure you is that, Im not letting you go because it gives me any sort of pleasure. But Im used to being miserable, Im shivering, i've hit my all time low, i dont even have the mind to speak, let alone to be wake. But i cant close my eyes, whenever i do, you comes to my mind, i cant afford to be in a dream, the idea of losing you itself is painful enough for me.
Finally, i hope everything works out for the best. I might live on in the hope of you coming back to me every single day, but I will never come to you, or disturb you. And no matter what you hear about me, good or bad, dont ever feel guilty of what happened to me or what i choose to be. You are and will not be accounted to any of the decision i made or will make. You will always remain as the best and sweetest thing that ever happened to me. Like i always say, some people does not deserve to be happy, and tragedies happens to them no matter what. This is the third time Im saying goodbye to you, and the dagger is driven more deeper each time. Im willing to do that any number times, Im willing to be vulnerable for you a hundred more time, Im willing to get stabbed over and over by you, but i want only you to stab me, not anyone else !!
Faithfully
Me
And now, i understand you dont want me in your life, I think i have to make peace with that, one way or another. After all, i always wanted you to be happy, that is why i left the first time, thinking i was wasting your love. Now it seems you too are convinced, maybe that is why you are pushing me away, despite all my efforts. I hope you are and will be happier without me, than when you were with me. I just hope you end up in the heights i thought you will reach, even though i may not be there with you to see where you have reached.
Maybe Im destined to live my life this way, One thing i can assure you is that, Im not letting you go because it gives me any sort of pleasure. But Im used to being miserable, Im shivering, i've hit my all time low, i dont even have the mind to speak, let alone to be wake. But i cant close my eyes, whenever i do, you comes to my mind, i cant afford to be in a dream, the idea of losing you itself is painful enough for me.
Finally, i hope everything works out for the best. I might live on in the hope of you coming back to me every single day, but I will never come to you, or disturb you. And no matter what you hear about me, good or bad, dont ever feel guilty of what happened to me or what i choose to be. You are and will not be accounted to any of the decision i made or will make. You will always remain as the best and sweetest thing that ever happened to me. Like i always say, some people does not deserve to be happy, and tragedies happens to them no matter what. This is the third time Im saying goodbye to you, and the dagger is driven more deeper each time. Im willing to do that any number times, Im willing to be vulnerable for you a hundred more time, Im willing to get stabbed over and over by you, but i want only you to stab me, not anyone else !!
Faithfully
Me
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