quotes 10-05-2013

"Creativity is the greatest rebellion against existence"
-Osho

"Forgiveness is the best form of love"

-Reinhold Niebuhr

"Lovers dont finally meet at somewhere. They are in each other all along"

-Rumi

"Suicide is the dumber possible way of getting revenge. Why is that? Because the people you want to strike back at are the very same folks who wont even remember you a week after you are gone, while the people you want to spare most-- the people who loves you, are the ones who will have to live with the pain of your suicide for the rest of their lives."
- David J Lieberman

"Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray"
-Rumi

A letter to the past, present and future !

     I tried to mend things with you. I know i screwed it up big time, but i tried to fix things the best way i could. I know I did leave you in the open, all by yourself, and abandoned you, but i came back, i tried to fix things, not by saying a plain sorry, but by working things out and fix everything that was broken. I was willing to change every aspect of me, the way you want, I still am, but you just pushed me away. I wanted to be back in your life, more than i wanted you to be in my life.

     And now, i understand you dont want me in your life, I think i have to make peace with that, one way or another. After all, i always wanted you to be happy, that is why i left the first time, thinking i was wasting your love. Now it seems you too are convinced, maybe that is why you are pushing me away, despite all my efforts. I hope you are and will be happier without me, than when you were with me. I just hope you end up in the heights i thought you will reach, even though i may not be there with you to see where you have reached.

     Maybe Im destined to live my life this way, One thing i can assure you is that, Im not letting you go because it gives me any sort of pleasure. But Im used to being miserable, Im shivering, i've hit my all time low, i dont even have the mind to speak, let alone to be wake. But i cant close my eyes, whenever i do, you comes to my mind, i cant afford to be in a dream, the idea of losing you itself is painful enough for me.

    Finally, i hope everything works out for the best. I might live on in the hope of you coming back to me every single day, but I will never come to you, or disturb you. And no matter what you hear about me, good or bad, dont ever feel guilty of what happened to me or what i choose to be. You are and will not be accounted to any of the decision i made or will make. You will always remain as the best and sweetest thing that ever happened to me. Like i always say, some people does not deserve to be happy, and tragedies happens to them no matter what. This is the third time Im saying goodbye to you, and the dagger is driven more deeper each time. Im willing to do that any number times, Im willing to be vulnerable for you a hundred more time, Im willing to get stabbed over and over by you, but i  want only you to stab me, not anyone else !!

Faithfully
Me

   

quotes 9-5-2013

"Dont fear failure. In great attempts, it is glorious even to fail"
-Bruce Lee

"Being honest does not get you a lot of friends. But it will get you the right ones"
-John lennon

"Some times two people have to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back together"
-Unknown

quotes 8-5-13

"I love because my love is not dependent on the object of love. My love is dependent on the state of being. So whether the other person changes, becomes different, because my love was never dependent on other person. My love is a state of being."

-Osho

"Your perception of me is a reflection of you"

-Unknown

"When you feel let down by someone you love, when you are angry at someone you really care, understand its the expectation that is making you uncomfortable. Let it go, if you want to let them back in your life. If they dont come back, its either they who does'nt worth you, or you dont deserve them"

-Myself 

Quotes 7-5-2013

"We may look different, but our hearts beat the same. Lets be more loving to others"
-Unknown

“You can't live your life for other people. You've got to do what's right for you, even if it hurts some people you love.” 
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

“You are my best friend as well as my lover, and I do not know which side of you I enjoy the most. I treasure each side, just as I have treasured our life together.” 
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

“My daddy said, that the first time you fall in love, it changes you forever and no matter how hard you try, that feeling just never goes away.” 
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

“Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That's what it was like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt if oyu planned on fallin gin love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once, and that's why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it.” 
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

"If you dont control your mind, someone else will"
-John Allston

"Security is mostly superstition. It does not exist in nature. Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing at all"
-Helen Keller

"Do what is right, Not what is easy"
-Unknown

"I learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is upto them"
-Unknown

Life story of a man, Who is failing.

                     These are an account of experience that Ive encountered in my life. This is not an autobiography. There are a lot of things that happened, which is not mentioned in this account, this account solely is based on why Im where now, emotionally! I dont know how long i will be myself. I dont know what decisions i will make in future. I dont even know what all twists or turns life is holding for me. Im just documenting my thoughts, so that, one day, if someone wants to know what went through my mind, and why i took the decisions ive made before, or later in my life, they will understand why.

Chapter 1

The Very Moment Of Pain

http://awanderingsoulwithnopeace.blogspot.in/2013/04/life-story-of-perfect-man-who-is-failing.html

Chapter 2

The Formative Years

http://awanderingsoulwithnopeace.blogspot.in/2013/04/life-story-of-perfect-man-who-is.html

Chapter 3

The Best Time Of My life.

http://awanderingsoulwithnopeace.blogspot.in/2013/04/life-story-of-perfect-man-who-is_12.html

Chapter 4

And Life Fills Me With Content

http://awanderingsoulwithnopeace.blogspot.in/2013/04/life-story-of-perfect-man-who-is_8617.html

Chapter 5

And Life Changes

http://awanderingsoulwithnopeace.blogspot.in/2013/04/life-story-of-perfect-man-who-is_23.html

Chapter 6

Living Through The Void

http://awanderingsoulwithnopeace.blogspot.in/2013/04/life-story-of-perfect-man-who-is_27.html

Chapter 7

Life is Unpredictable

http://awanderingsoulwithnopeace.blogspot.in/2013/04/life-story-of-man-who-is-failing-part-7.html

Chapter 8

Stabbing The Heart With Knife

http://awanderingsoulwithnopeace.blogspot.in/2013/04/life-story-of-man-who-is-failing-part-8.html

Chapter 9

Struggling to Reality

http://awanderingsoulwithnopeace.blogspot.in/2013/04/life-story-of-man-who-is-failing-part-9.html

Chapter 10

Present Day

http://awanderingsoulwithnopeace.blogspot.in/2013/05/life-story-of-man-who-is-failing-part-10.html

Life story of a man who is failing part 10

Chapter 10
Present Day

Whatever happens life has to go on! right? Im not living a routine. Its like im stuck in a day, that i live the same day over and over and its boring. I was a traveler, not anymore. I was an adventurer, a guitarist, a fighter, but not anymore. Good things happen, bad things happen, sometimes, i wish there was a reset button on our lives, or atleast a shut down button.

Lucky are the ones who gets to spend their life time with their first love. Im starting to believe in fate. Maybe its fate that puts me and her together, when everything looked grim and impossible. Maybe its fate that made me break up with her, to make me realize, i could never be real happy without her and maybe that made me realize i could never love anyone or anything more than i could love her. Maybe its fate thats mend her with a freak, so that she still is unmarried until now. If it was meant to be, she would have been married of, atleast 10 months before, but here we are. After all, i realized one does'nt need to be happy to live. One thing im certain is that, if Im not worthy to be in a relationship with the person i love the most, if I dont care enough for the person that i value the most, I will never be worthy for anyone else. Thats the positive i take out from the whole experience, eventhough it seems to be a negative. The self realization, the knowledge of who you are. The knowledge, of your limits. Thats worth a lot !!

weekly dose of philosophy, may 1st

"Who ever is not against us is for us."

Thats something jesus has told, when his disciples told him about a man who is doing miracles in the name of jesus. That is a strong phrase, a phrase that most of us forgets. We are all trying hard to prove ourself right. We are all trying our best to convince others that our belief system is the best than others. What is the point in that? Ive read a short story recently "LOLA" which is about a strong willed girl in the western society. She despises suicide when marlin monroe commits suicide, yet she is afraid of doing the same when she has hardship in her life. In a way we all are like that. When we don't face any problems, we are really strong with our convictions, but when stretched, we succumb and becomes irrational with our faith. After all we still in a religious faith, where we value the ten commandments than the two given to us by jesus, which only mentions love and love alone, without any boundaries, or do's and do not's!!

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Im an avid bike rider. And a very few are better at riding a motor cycle than me, and i take pride in that. Im a fan of manual shift geared vehicles. When i started driving, i used tachometer, and used RPM to shift gears, as its more visual and accurate. Time moved on, and i started using the power delivery i get, while opening the throttle, to judge the gear shifts. Even later, i sensed the need of gear change from the engine sounds, and now its almost voluntary, that i knows when to shift gears, without even noticing any signals. Even better is that, before, i needed to put my ride in the correct gear inorder to prevent the engine from stalling, now i could escape from stalling, by the usage of clutch and proper throttle control. There is a lot of parallels to life from this experience. We need to get to that level with everything, where things flow to us involuntary, whether it is  faith, God, Love, Relationship etc no matter what it is. Sadly most of us are still stuck in the phase where we look for signs and signals to act. We look out for the obvious, but that does'nt mean the obvious is the only choice. Obvious is the easier choice, but that just leaves you an amateur, everytime you pick the obvious.